procrastinate - the new meaning

it's really obvious that i have brought a new meaning of procrastinate to my life…

procrastinate
verb
fear of failure often causes people to procrastinate: delay, put off doing something, postpone action, defer action, be dilatory, use delaying tactics, stall, temporize, drag one's feet/heels, take one's time, play for time, play a waiting game.

always put off, postpone, delayed everything that i need or even want to do because of any reason, just because i don't want to "it" right now and i want to "other thing" instead…

aneh kan… selalu aja dapet alasan to put off something, atau bahkan menemukan suatu pekerjaan lain untuk dikerjakan karena gak pengen ngerjain sesuatu sekarang… :d

so what happen to priority and needs?

entah lah… dan juga seperti susah banget untuk berubah, aku sih nyalahin karena kurang disiplin yaa… but i really find discipline is boring… hahah!

and am i blogging right now… the things that i've been put off for a very long time… because i need to do my french homework, so i blog instead… :d

i have a long list of things to do, between reading, writing postcards, doing homework, learning french, doing my office-bring-to-home job [what the hell am i thinking? oh right, we have two days holidays beside the weekend, and i can't afford doing nothing the whole time, wait i'm not really doing nothing, right?], planning to go away next year [i mean for our holidays], thinking about my life, thinking about my health, thinking about my dreams… alot of thinking, needs a lot of time… doing nothing called meditation, meeting people, exercising, dieting… see… i up to do so many things… that i should do in my free time…

let's see now… how many free time i have left in my whole week… from monday to friday, i have to work from 8 to 5, added 2 hours each on morning and afternoon on the road, so my work time is 6 to 7 ==> it's 13 hours already…
6 hours to sleep ==> 19 hours, so it's left 5 hours to do other things… nothing much left in my working days…

and on the weekend, there's so much i want and need to do, and i end up exhausting and need some rest…

so i really cannot blame my self for procrastinating right?

nice excuse…

but i do need to change… i need to do the things… and i cannot go on this procrastinate things…

aaahhhh… even this blogging is depressing…


thing i wrote last week and left unpost until today...