i know i know... i should have not complaining about what i have right now... and i should have been so greatful to everything i have now...
buuuttt... hehehe... i just can't help it.
kita emang gak akan pernah bisa menilai sesuatu dalam waktu singkat, tapi makin lama... kita akan mulai tau lebih banyak dan mulai 'tau' ada yang gak beres... dan mulai merasa gak nyaman...
that's what i feel...
sure, semua pasti punya kekurangan, dimana pun gak ada yang perfect...
dan... waits... waits...
let me thinking again... sebenernya apa yang aku cari sih disini... just another place where i could have a job and give me a relatively good salary... walopun rada2 ngerasa klo diakalin juga... :b
dan... kenapa juga aku pusing dengan segala macem double standard dan segala macem ketidakadilan... [ciye... ketidakadilan bo`... ]
ugh... my head is blocked...
disatu pihak... i need the job... and i want to keep my standard 'value' of doing my job... [huhu... padahal maahh... :D ] and i feel if i reduced my standard then... khawatirnya aku jadi berubah menjadi 'the low standard person'... :b
tapi klo mo nerusin keep up my standard... BeTe juga bo`...
dimana setiap decision i've made is being revised or questioned... huuuu... sensitif amat bu?
soooo... be light aja laaah yaaa... cool down! light up! and BE greatful... itu kan intinya?
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