Menulis sebagai Meditasi, Latihan #14

I was stuck a week... and let's just start again.

The train of thought just went on and on... and yesterday, until today, because I still want to buy unnecessary thing again... and I just can't resist the call... 😂😂😆

But something just struck me yesterday, and the thing about be careful of what you wish for is really true!

I've been buying clothes, expensive ones, and I've been thinking why? And then suddenly I remembered about being wanted to change my wardrobe and maybe change my style... and everything became clear... Hahah! Gak bener banget...  dan artinya I really should be careful with my thought ya kan... You don't want something bad happens just because you wonder effortless about it.

Emang sih... rational thinking it's not easy to change something or to get something just because you want it to be... how ever there are things that are really happening... and there are things that are not happening because... because I didn't do something, anything, to make it happening...

Persis kaya' this wishful thinking... suddenly I bought so many clothes ya kan...

Walaupun ya harusnya sih gak gini2 amat juga... hahaha... ya sudahlah... habis ini udahan kan... udah ambil budget sampe February tau....

Padahal February mau ikutan TTC yoga... dooh! 

And I still can't make my self study my Korea...

Sometimes, I'm thinking about the contradiction of my action to my planning... Kenapa gitu... 

Sepertinya sih memang butuh waktu dan adjustment... Kalau terlalu dipaksa, burnt-out-nya cepet banget... malah jadi excuse to skip and leave it.

Jadi emang gak bisa dipaksain juga... tapi gak bisa dibiar2in juga, karena terlalu gampang terdistraksi juga...

And... the urge still there...

Yup! I bought it...

Padahal masih ada essential things that I need to buy sih... Hahah! Ya sudah lah... Nanti dibudgetin lagi...

Paling gak sekarang sudah bisa untuk mengurangi jajan di Gofood, yay! Sebenernya sih lebih ke menu yang gak menarik di Gofood sekitaran sini... mana ongkir plus biaya plus2nya makin naik... Masa' bisa sampe Rp9ribu sendiri cuma untuk packing + handling fee. Ya kan males... mending gak usah. 

Mending masak aja sendiri di rumah... kadang kan makanan klo beli itu enak karena saos mayonaise dan saos cabenya aja... Haha... lagi gak tertarik sama makanan2nya... 

Emang beda sama di sekitaran JakSel, sering ada yang baru... jadi pengen nyobain, walaupun kadang ada yang zonk juga, kadang ada yang enak dan repurchase.

Kalo gak strict, mesti dimenitin, tapi bisa dipause, mau nulis dalam waktu sejam jadi lama banget, udah mau 2 jam ini... baru dapet 20 menit... 😛

Kaya'nya udah dulu deh... panas banget hari ini... 😅