on diet...

i'm on diet and it sucks... because i'm not dieting at all therefore i'm not loosing weight... and i'm just starving my self almost crazy... i know that i'm maybe low at blood pressure and my blood sugar also low... perhaps... because i dont really know... but the things which i know... i'm craving for foods, i'm craving for sugar, i'm craving for chocolate and ice cream...

i guess, that's not only because i'm dieting, it's because i used to let loose my self... to eat what i want, when i want... :(

so then... when i starved my self, i just want everything... and everything seems to taste very good... and they did taste good... :(

my god, why is my metabolism keep fat easily?

i took a personal training program at my gym, gee... for the first time only, my body is ache... i dont know if i could acomplished all the 12 meeting with the personal training, because it's half month to fasting month and because it seems that the trainer himself has so many excuses to skip the meeting... :(

gee... i guess it was the wrong call to join the gym at the first place and even the program that followed...

i guess... they are all only for me to know what its like to be a metropolitan... work down town, going to the gym after hours [do the healthy life], and get stuck on the traffic jam...

its not my thing... and i cant wait to have my way of life back... to go to the office just a walk near by, wake up in the morning and walk near the home or just wake up late and going to office near running... oh i miss my life... :D

cant wait for this year to end then i can submit my resignation letter and say good bye to this stressful life and just be at home and have nothing...

i always worry about financial matter and forget that it's not me who decided that...

t-b-c

ps. ngikutin Indah... :D