your value againsts other's

it's funny how life just turn you at any direction it likes... and not that we couldnt do anything about that... but sometime all we can do just let it be and be flown by it... because when we try hard to switch direction to the one that we thought is the "right" one... and you'll know how it might twisted arround and then there is nothing you can do about that... :D

kira2 bulan lalu... masih baru banget disini... i filled a quetioner dari lembaga survey di australia... tentang Ethics in the Australian business...

yeee... emang kaga nyambung... yah... ngisinya sih based on my previous employer doing and/or my personal opinion regarding to such things...

waktu kemaren ngisi... bo`... pe-de abis...

salah satunya gini (more or less, and in my own language): if you find there is something about your employer or thing that you have to do in the name of your employer is in the contrary to your value... what would you do? .... [yaaahhh... sepertinya sih gak tepat begini pertanyaannya... :D ]

dan reaksi yang aku kasih adalah... I refused!

doh!... pe-de kalo emang tidak pernah merasa melakukan sesuatu yang berhubungan dengan pekerjaan yang bertentangan dengan "nilai" yang kita miliki...

tapi... pada saatnya kita memang harus melakukan what would you do?

yeeaahhhh... nothing i could do actually... gak mungkin kan bo` klo aku bilang "saya tidak mau melakukan hal ini... karena jika saya melakukannya maka artinya saya berbohong "secara sadar"... dimana saya menghidari berbohong atau melakukan sesuatu dengan tidak jujur atau melanggar peraturan... kecuali kepepet... atau only for jokes...." :b

intinya sih... sebenernya aku merasa aku gak akan bisa mempertanggungjawabkan perbuatan itu... sementara aku juga gak bisa mangkir dari tanggung jawab... after all it's my name and that my signature over there...

yaaahhh... tapi mau gimana lagi... ya jadinya ya udah aja seperti itu...
i couldnt do anything about that... and i just hope that i wont be prejudiced because of it...

sometimes... it just hard to be me...
have to be honnest all the time, otherwise i will feel guilty because of my self, but then... i questioning my decision and wondering why the heck i should be one too way honnest?

i dont do double standards... yang kadang agak susah and make me look stiff...

always want to do everything by the rules as far as i can go where sometime i just break the rules on purpose... tapi jarang2 juga sih... breaking the rules maksudnya... =)

anyway... aku tetep bersyukur with who i am siihh...

walaupun kaku... gak pinter basa basi... sering dibilang sombong, mungkin emang sombong... dan sekarang lagi membeku kedinginan...

btw, good newsnya koq belum ada yah? :D