kualitas hidup

kemaren sempet sakit seminggu, sakit yang bener2 sakit… cuma bisa tiduran aja, klo duduk pusing, makan mual, minum mual… tersiksa banget… bahkan ada saat2 tertentu yang aku merasa sakit parah, aku udah kepikiran mungkin aku bakalan meninggal… serius!

aku sakit apa? para typhus… sebenernya bukan gejala tipus seperti yang dimaksud orang2, tapi menurut dokter yang meriksa aku kemaren, sama2 tipus, tapi lebih ringan… karena obatnya juga sama…

akhirnya setelah seminggu, hari senin maksain kerja lagi… soalnya gak enak juga mau gak masuk terus, mana izin sakit dari dokternya cuma 2 hari… lama2 gak masuk kan bisa2 nanti dipotong cuti… :d

trus karena ada libur kejepit dan emang udah direncanain agak lama sebelumnya, wiken kemaren pulang ke semarang… abis itu baru pulih 100%…

aku tau sih penyebab aku sakit, karena aku kecapean dan stress berat… stress kenapa? karena ngerjain laporan yang ngejlimet harus detil banget, karena sibuk sama kegiatan BBI (Blogger Buku Indonesia), aku ikutan ngadain Give Away… jadi kepikiran aja waktu itu blum order buku untuk pemenangnya… trus sama karena aku ikutan online course yang padet banget schedulenya, tiap minggu ada aja yang harus di submit… pas sakit tambah stress karena date line… akhirnya aku un-enroll… >.<

waktu2 aku diisi dengan kejer2an antara kerja di kantor, perjalanan pergi dan pulang kantor yang bikin stress juga, trus tugas2 online course, baca buku… agak bingung ngatur waktunya juga… blum lagi karena kemaren sempet tiap Sabtu harus lembur…

puncaknya kan Sabtu terakhir itu… entah kenapa males banget minum air putih, tapi minum macem2 sih… minum teh, minum susu coklat, minum jus… tapi gak minum air putih, trus pengen banget mi ayam… jadi makan siangnya pesen mi ayam…

pulang kantor, mampir dulu beli2 baju untuk ngantor, setelah sampe rumah trus makan, udah ngerasa gak enak badan, trus tidur…

waktu bangun hari Minggunya belum berasa sakit banget, masih pengen duduk2… tapi lemes… trus setelahnya udah deh tepar seminggu…

kepikiran sih… klo sekarang kualitas hidupku menurun karena ngerasa kurang waktu, stress kerjaan, stress lingkungan kerjaan… stress gak sempet beres2 rumah, gak sempet santai2 masak di rumah… >.<

jadi pengen nyari alternatif kerjaan yang bisa ngasih waktu lebih banyak…
makanya waktu kemaren diajakin/diprospek temen sebenernya agak skeptis karena MLM gitu, tapi koq abis itu kepikiran aja… wah bisa jadi ini jalan keluarnya…
karena produknya kosmetik dan suplemen, kaya'nya orang2 bakalan mudah tertarik, dan aku juga bakalan bisa pake…

belum mulai sih… masih terus mempertimbangkan… kebetulan minggu ini mereka punya acara, jadi kemungkinan aku baru akan liat2 minggu depan, jadi sampai minggu depan bakalan terus mempertimbangkan untuk jadi gabung atau gak…

kalo terus2an kejar2an sama waktu begini, rasanya kualitas hidupku akan terus menurun, gak sempet merawat diri… gimana nanti kalo punya anak? jadi stress lagi deh mikirinnya…

sekarang aja berasa gak punya waktu bwat "me time" atau at least untuk ngerawat diri…
bisa sih… klo mau dibikin jadwal, tapi kan seringnya malah ngelanggar sendiri… :D

kalo misalnya gak harus kerja dengan cara berangkat subuh pulang udah malem… mungkin pagi masih bisa olah raga… trus bisa ngerawat badan… misalnya luluran atau apa lah… trus bisa juga bersih2 rumah… masak… hehe… ibu2 rumah tangga banget deh…

mungkin orang2 bilang bosen yaa di rumah aja… tapi aku sih seneng2 aja lho… klo punya uang sih… hahaha… semua orang juga pengen begitu yaa…

yah… kita liat aja deh… nasib membawa aku kemana… yang penting percaya aja… pasti Tuhan akan membawa kita ke arah yang lebih baik… :)

wikennya udah selesai… sekarang waktunya untuk nyiapin diri kerja lagi… ;-)

good luck and have faith that everything gonna be okay… *hugs*

close up interview

andai saja kalian blum bosan dan tetep pengen tau tentang aku... hihi... baca ini deh :D

member komunitas & giveaway

terus terang kalo disuruh menilai diri sendiri... maka aku adalah orang yang paling mudah terdistraksi... mudah tertarik, tapi mudah lupa dan bosan...
dan sering kali tidak konsisten... :d

paling sering kejadian kalau jadi member komunitas, lebih sering pasif dan gak kenal juga sama anggota lain di komunitas itu... aneh kan?

tapi aku mau berubah... :D

berubah dengan cara ikutan secara aktif dalam acara komunitas dimana aku jadi anggotanya... dimulai dengan ikutan jadi host giveaway dalam rangka ulang tahun BBI [Blogger Buku Indonesia] yang kedua... yay!!!

mau ikutan? gampang banget lho... hadiahnya juga lumayan... ;-)

caranya liat di blog buku sebelah yaaa....

setelah ini... semoga bisa ikutan dateng di acara kopdar yang diadain komunitas2 ini... pengen kenal sama orang2 baru :D

wish me luck & good luck with the giveaway!

english composition I on coursera

i'm really glad that i finally can finish and submit my first assignment on Coursera. it's a free online course and i'm taking the English Composition I.

this is my third attempts… the first one is Statistics One, i failed, unenrolled after the fourth weeks, i guess, then something i forgot i've taken, unenrolled before even join the class.

and why English Composition? because i want to learn how to write from whatever aspect… and this course is really on how to write a scientific writing… i just think, if i can succeed this, i may be able to write any kind of writing… i guess… :d

anyway… wish me luck…

i really have low self esteem on the class, since other students seem a lot more a head of me… and since i don't do this for grades, i guess it's more than OK if i only can pass the course and get a relatively good grade :D

how are you guys? is life happy lately? ;-)

good bye 2012; hello 2013

it's been a wonderful journey in 2012, though we haven't had our ultimate dreams yet… i don't complain at all for the 2012…

i didn't say that there aren't any sad moments in the 2012, but so far… i guess i'm really grateful for whatever happened in 2012… and just wish for a better year this 2013…

it's the best year for me in terms of technology… i have my dream gadgets :D
i have my macbook air… :D
i have my android phone, it's a galaxy nexus, not a famous one… but enough for me… i haven't dare my self to have an iphone while android is still the best option to get around freely :d

my BB is going to die, i'll let it be for this time being… let's see how far it can last any way… though, i'm not hating it anymore… since what can i say, there're still people in my BBM friend lists, and there's actually someone who'd still reach me through it… :D

there are a few new nice things i've got to know in 2012… it's my time to really connect to ebooks… with those kind of ereader applications… :D
though… eventually, there are rather many books i've found online, freely… not that i actually planned to pirate those books… i couldn't buy them, i swear! :d

my english i guess it's getting better since i read a lot of english ebooks…
it's my time of year that i hooked up with romance, more to say they are erotica romances… some are goods, the others are just blah! >.<

it's my time of years, that i actually start to write book reviews and a couple of short fiction stories [which i just left it unfinished]…

for all those kind of things, i must say thank you to @mba_uti who really is encouraging me to read ebooks :D

i found a really good character in a book, which i just fell in love… never happens before… :d - it's Simon Parker of Wallbanger by Alice Clayton
i must add that this book is my new record since less than 48 hours, i finished the book and came up with the review, the book is so good!
i found a really good trilogy series - it's the Hunger Games series by Suzzane Collins
i found a really good movie based on book so far - it's Life of Pi

it's the last year of Harry Potter and Twilight Saga.. but we're expecting a few films based on books this year :)

and in 2013, i'm going to have number of books target in goodreads.com
i haven't decided yet… but i hope i can finish around 30 books this year, so it's about 2 books in a month… that's not really hard i guess…

i hope i will have more time to read and to write this year…
and since i have my gadget, it's really easy to read on it, it's really better than having to carry book around, since i don't really like to see my book is ruin in my bag…

enough about books…

in 2012, i found my self a few good friends in the office, whom that make me want to stay to be around them…
but 2013 is the year of determination, since our office will have a merger with another japanese office… the process seems not really went well… but we just hope for the better…

i really like my friends in the office now… and i don't really want to start in a new office in near future… though, it turned out that i kind of being tricked when i got accepted in this office, i'm not going to run for the details, i just have to say that i don't really like the situation…
the job so far is okay…
i got to go to regional office in singapore, and i kind of hoping to be send again this year, since i have plan to do something in singapore this year, if i get send by the office, it saves me my tickets monies… :d
but then i have to hear what my regional office's bosses have to say about our performance, which wouldn't be too nice… :D
after all, everything has its own price :d

and because the singapore trip, we or rather me, decide that we'll have to have trip at least once a year, this year we have a lombok getaway... i have booked most of everything, we just need our tickets to go to gili trawangan from bali :D

and 2012, kind of a good year for my husband starting business too…
we plan to have the office by early this year…
and we also plan to have our own land to build our house this year… amiinn… :D

and we also have a really good feeling, that our baby will come also this year… please do pray for us :D

talking about feeling… i think i really have to practice how to read my hunch - my feeling… i really think that i have the ability, but i couldn't read it right… and most of the time i just ignored them…
maybe someday, i have the way to do it…

this year, i hope i can exercise more… and getting my self a better shape too…

2012, it's my year to get to know coursera.org… though i haven't finished any of my intended courses… but this year, i plan to join my guitar course from Berklee College of Music, cool right?

i'm going to buy me a guitar soon, once i can contact a friend that will accompany me to buy it… wish me luck!
it's my dream to be able to play guitar :D

and family… i hope that i can love my family members better… :D
i hope i can be closer with my mother in law...
i have many nieces and nephews now…
i hope my brother can find a better solution for his problem… and i really hope that i have learned a really good lesson for my self without necessarily doing the mistake…

i hope i can be a better person…
to be a more caring person...
i hope i can be more spiritually, i hope i can find more time to silence my self…
i hope i can control my emotion better…

i hope i can have all my hopes this year :D

thank you for still keeping up with me... and i also hope that i can write more frequent this year...
i hope you have a great years a head too *hugs*

see you soon :D

impulsive book buyer…

haven't i share that i'm an impulsive book buyer? well… i do! :D
and after these couple a days, i've been blubbering about ebooks or printed book and more on the ereader device… i've come to a conclusion:

de2via: promise my self, not to buy any ereader unless i've read all my printed book >,< or kindle becomes available in indonesia :D

since i'm not good on promise to my self, i'm willing to take this promise seriously…
though i'm not promising my self not to buy any printed book… HAHA… yesterday i was buying my self the latest Bartimaeus book :d

geting my self printed books is just delaying my self to buy the ereader, right… so that would be fine…

but, i will start reading all my stacked books anyway…
perhaps a hundred book a year is not impossible too… :D

just keep thinking about it… and actually there's someone who, by November, just read about 200 and so books… in English and in Bahasa Indonesia… WOW! i just can't imagine my self in that achievement…

i know i love books and i love to read, but 200 books… ggeezzz… i thought i'm already a book worm… or soon to be an ebook bug… but compare to her, me? nothing! >,<

just wondering how would she choose the books and comes up with those 200 list…
soalnya berasa rugi aja gak sih… klo baca buku yang gak terlalu bagus, rugi uang dan rugi waktu…

tapi emang sih ada buku yang menarik perhatian kita… yang bikin kita penasaran, walaupun jelek tetep aja dipaksain baca… walaupun harus breaking our own rules for that… hihi… curhat nih ceritanya… :D
i confest i'm just skimming through the Fifty Shades of Grey book… and i don't like it…

and i'm glad that yesterday, i can deprive a temptation to buy a comic with erotic gay cover costs 2.99 usd… aaarrrgghh… what a shame! if i charged my husband credit card with such book… XD

hampir aja…. udah tinggal masukin nomer kartu kredit tuh… tapi dipikir2 lagi, ngapain aku ngeracunin pikiranku sama gambar2 yang aku sebenernya udah bisa banyangin gak akan kelihatan menyenangkan juga… gambar2 yang akan ada selalu di dalam pikiranku… :d

anyway, i'm compromise with my self… that… i will read my books, while i still can buy me printed book or ebook to read on my laptop…
until i clear up my books to read, or until Kindle and it's device is available in Indonesia… :)

btw, my other blog is becoming a book blog... i've to start writing again... but... with characters i don't really like... it's rather hard to writer a happy story... i don't want my story to be so whining and sad...
i guess i should change the characters... :)

happy weekend everyone!

hardcopy or e-book

#persoalan banget nih untuk aku mau milih lebih baik beli buku hardcopy atau mau e-book... >.<

sebenernya sih klo e-book enaknya bacanya di gadget... tapi rasanya sayang juga uangnya klo mesti beli gadget baru lagi, padahal kemaren baru beli laptop dan BB juga udah mau minta ganti...
klo mau beli handphone yang bisa bwat baca juga, ntar kegedean dan mahal juga kali... :d

klo baca di laptop, berasanya kurang santai, walaupun sebenernya mungkin sama aja... :D

nnaahhh... sebenernya juga ada gadget yang aku taksir... Kindle Fire HD [or something], kecuali yang keluaran paling gress sebenernya Kidle device ini gak terlalu mahal, yaaa... sekitar 3 jutaan...

i mean, compare to other gadget that is hip now... it's considerably cheaper, no?
secara selain bwat maen games, belum kepikiran juga fungsi punya gadget bwat apa... :D

tapi ntar klo beli Kindle, mesti beli e-book format kindle di Amazon aja dong... lah... setau aku sih cuma Amazon yang jual... maksudnya gak bisa ngebandingin harga gitu... hehe... walaupun kaya'nya sama deh harga e-booknya... kaya'nya...

sebenernya bisa juga sih beli Samsung Galaxy Tab yang murah... ada tuh... yang gak bisa bwat telpon... but again... Kindle device is better for reading device...

eng ing eng... galau aabbiisss... :D

kalo beli hardcopy - maksudnya sih printed book yaa...
eehhmm.. udah banyak buku di rumah, lama2 nyimpennya repot juga yaa...

tapi tapi... kalau beli e-book karena bacanya di laptop, agak susah juga dibawa santai... [we're back to square 1 :d ]

jadddiii....

klo beli printed book, katanya Mba_Uti gak environment friendly and go green juga...

tapi klo beli e-book, berasa rugi gak sih... hihihi... kebiasaan dapet e-book gratisan ya begini ini...

mungkin gak ada salahnya juga kali yaa... beli Kindle Fire, a new year present for my self, perhaps?

hhhhhmmmm... that would be a considerable thing... :D

wanna share your point of view?

sebenernya sih ini karena belakangan ini udah jarang banget ke toko buku, gak ada Gramedia di mall deket rumah, kalo pun ada Gramedia yang deket, mall-nya kurang menyenangkan...
jadi berasa gak up-date banget tentang buku2 baru...

lalu tau2 ada racun nih dari Mba_Uti... :d
dia mendorong2 aku baca romance e-book... sekarang aku udah baca 4 judul, 1 dikasih sama dia [harusnya gak boleh sih... but... whatever!], 2 hasil download dari 4shared.com [sama... harusnya gak boleh juga... :D ], satu lagi gratisan dari Kobo.com

nnnaahhh... salah satunya... aku suka, ada 2 buku lagi... yang lagi dipertimbangkan apa mendingan beli e-book atau printed copy-nya... :D

dari Mba_Uti juga... jadi tau klo sekarang ada banyak book blogger, mereka bikin review buku2 yang mereka baca...
ada banyak challenge juga diantara mereka2 para blogger ini... salah satunya... finishing 100 books in a year...

WOW! that would be awsome! if you have the time...
karena gak cuma menyelesaikan baca buku2 itu, tapi kan bikin review-nya juga...
bikin review-nya kan juga gak asal...

itung2 kasar aja yaa... dalam setahun ada 365 hari, jadi sekitar 3-4 hari untuk menyelesein satu buku (including the review), kalau satu buku harganya rata2 50 ribu aja... modalnya paling gak 5 juta... itu harga buku cetak dalam negeri, klo buku import lebih mahal, harganya lebih kurang sama kaya' e-book-nya... sekitar 100 ribuan... artinya sekitar 10 juta...

WOW! again...

hhhhmmmm... kaya'nya spending bukuku belum sampe sebegitunya... walaupun emang banyak juga sih... tapi 10 juta a year, that's a lot of money!
and a lot of dedication! :D

kalo masih bisa menikmati sih... mungkin masih OK yaa... apalagi klo bisa making money out of it, that would be great!
if that so, i won't hesitate to do the same ;)

keep the spirit :D

okay... the second entry is exagerating... hihi... nantinya bakalan aku edit, tapi mungkin gak sekarang, dan nantinya pasti cerita bakalan berubah...

ternyata gak terlalu susah untuk bisa menulis, apalagi kalo tulisan kita sesuaikan dengan apa yang bisa kita tulis... dalam hal aku sendiri adalah dengan gaya curhat... :d

tapi tentang apa ceritanya nyambung atau apakah nanti ceritanya bakalan bisa diterima orang sih yaaa... mungkin gak bisa bilang apa2 sekarang...

yang jelas, i'll keep my spirit to keep on writing... SEMANGAT!